It is not the four kids, I was made for that – in fact as I type this post Addison is climbing on me while Carter and Griffin are sleeping on my chest. And I am loving every snuggly minute! It isn’t that I can’t sit down without a child wiggling their way onto my lap, or wanting me to get back up to get them something. In my house someone is usually crying, about to cry or just got done crying. These aren’t the things that wear me down or make me so tired at night that I fall asleep before my head hits the pillow. I am not denying that all of this can be a bit tiring at times and my husband usually has to kick me out of the house to enjoy some “me” time every week I take all of it in stride and really do feel so blessed to be a part of it. God made me to be a mom.
Unfortunately, God didn’t make me to be a particularly tidy person, or very organized for that matter. I don’t like to pick up (I hear some people do, strange!) and I detest putting away laundry. Anyone who knew me as a teenager and saw my bedroom can attest to my weakness when it comes to putting things away! This is where I find myself utterly exhausted. Even if I got a full night’s sleep (which I don’t see happening anytime in the near future with two baby boys) I can’t see myself escaping the complete and overwhelming exhaustion that follows the dishes, laundry and general mess of having four kids and two dogs! Let me clarify, I’m not gross – I do like to clean when it involves dusting, Clorox and the like – it is the picking up to get to that point which holds me back.
I have friends who have four kids, and they always seem so calm about the messy things in life – I have always admired their relaxed approach. Now I know it is because they are too tired to exude the energy to get worked up about the small stuff. Sure their personalities lead them to take things in stride but I bet a lot of their approach comes from their drive to survive the mess without going insane!
So this is where I sit today, at the bottom of a pile of clothes to be folded, dishes to be put away and toys to be picked up. And I am too tired to pull myself out from under the heap! But I will, not to worry – because if I don’t I wouldn’t be able to enjoy the park with Addie this afternoon, snuggling with the boys without guilt, or enjoy watching Kennedy master her forward roll at gymnastics because all I would be thinking about was my to do list that never gets shorter.
So instead of fretting over the mess that never goes away, I write this disclaimer:
I will be doing my best to keep up with all that goes along with four kids and two dogs. However, if you come to my house you can expect that there will be dishes in the sink, laundry to be washed, dried, folded and put away, toys on the floor and a toy room that has a magical ability to make its own mess – no matter how much I try to organize and clean it. So be ready to roll up your sleeves and get to work or look away – because I will be too busy being a mom to four wonderful kids to worry about impressing you with my housekeeping skills!
Okay, enough sitting for one day…time to go do the dishes!